Fall Is Coming

Well, Fall is coming.

I'm excited for it, but sad that it will soon be very cold.

It rained very very hard for about 5 minutes before clearing up. It is now sunny and almost completely dry. Rather impressive.

When the leaves start to change, I really want to take the D line out to Riverside, and the Red line out to the Ashmont-Mattapan high-speed shuttle. It's such a beautiful time in New England.

I've got 3 TV shows I'll be working on. I'm assistant directing Tube Talk and AfterHours, and if the auditions go well today, I'll be talent on the Gentlemen's Club.

This weekend I'll be turning in a script for Women in Motion and hopefully I'll get a chance to direct or DP or produce a film for them this year. If I can, I'll be on a film shoot every weekend.

Joe Collesano want's me to help him on his film two, and I probably will. I've got "The Hop" Tyler B's project, and hopefully more will be coming.

Editing jobs are rolling in as well. Stephen C. and Alex C. want me to edit the weekly podcasts of there VM498 Show. Hopefully I'll be able to do all of that and still edit the EDGE and Uppereast.com edits.

We'll see how it's all going soon enough.

Wow! Wowwy Wow Wow!

That's a reference to something that Steve Martin says in Dirty Rotten Scoundrels.

I am updating right now to let you know what's going on in my mind and my life.

The audition's for all ECTV Programming were today, and I didn't go at all. You see, I am pulling away from the Emerson Channel this year because I want to leave my time open so that I can go on film shoots at have time to edit movies and do my own things. Please be aware that I love and respect the Emerson Channel, but it is time for me to move along, at least temporarily, so that I can dive into film.

It's really scary, as I said before, but I sat down with Pete Chvany, advisor of the EVVY awards and he told me that he thinks that it's okay to experiment and try new things because that's what college is for, and you will usually be forgiven for leaving one area for another as long as you are clear on why.

In reality, the times they are a changing, and I'm trying to bring my film experience to fruition. It's about time.

I'm just worried that people will think that I don't care about TV or the friends I have made there and that I am abandoning them there.

This is not true at all. I just want to make films for a little while, and see what it's like, to re-affirm the things that I want to do.

I'm already starting to worry about being in too far over my head. I'm going to be editing a podcast (10 segements) over the sememster, about 1 every week or so, and I am a little worried about getting that done ontop of my classwork and other editing jobs and obligations. But I'm sure I'll figure out a schedule soon enough. The calender year is still young.

What else? I'm teaching a bolex workshop tommorow at 1:00pm, and I'm really excited and nervous about it. After all, it's not something that I've ever done before, and I'll have all these freshmen looking up to me! How cool! It's going to be a fun and exciting time, and I'll try and let you know how it goes.

BlueYonder, Who Are You?

I've noticed that I've been getting repeat hits from a person in the UK. Their ISP is Blueyonder something or other, and then always find there way to my weblog by searching "ezra horne" in google.uk.

I don't think I know anyone in the UK. So who could it be? If it's someone I know, can you e-mail me at let me know who it is? I'm curious.

If it isn't someone I know, then I am super excited that someone finds my life interesting enough to be following.

As for the rest of my visitors, thanks for coming, and keep coming back!

Introspection...

I'm at a point in my life where it is becoming crucial that I start examining what I am doing.

And it's crippling me.

I'm paralyzed with the fear that if I make a sudden change to what I am doing, I won't be able to make it, or that I will be rejected, or that I will have made the wrong decision. It's scary.

I'm not happy with my job at The Emerson Channel, and I think I am going to ask to either be giving a creative position or leave the channel. That's scary. I'll be losing my spending income and creating potention problems down the road. Should I just stick it out? I don't know, and find it impossible to tell. But I know that I am not sleeping well, that I'm already feeling anxious, and it's only day 4... nothing has started yet!

I still have to drive my car home from the North Shore. I think that I might do it today if possible, so that I can have one less thing to worry about. I'll have to pack a camera to get some photos taken for when I sell it.

I'm sorry these posts are getting lamer. I've got a lot of goals on my plate for this sememster, and sometimes I wonder if I'll be able to meet them all. I have been walking about 30 minutes everyday with a few skipped days, but I think as long as I walk 5 times a week or so I should be able to fight weight gain and maybe even lose weight.

My meeting with a trainer from the Emerson College Fitness Center is Monday. I'll be taking a fitness test, and working with them to make a fitness plan so that I can increase my energy and stamina while hopefully loosing weight. I'm very nervous and very uncomfortable with this. I know I am very out of shape, and I don't want to fail. But we'll see what happens.

All of the classes I have are amazing. I'm really excited about them all. I am mildly concerned with the work load, but only because I am a procrastinator and I plan to be very very busy this semester.

The Organization Fair is tommorow. That's where I'll be signing up for FPS and NBS to hopefully work on more film shoots this year. I'd still like to work as a host on The Gentlemen's Club doing craft corner, and I really want to try out for director of Tracking. But other than that, I really want out of TV this year.

I want to poduce some of my OWN things, and I want to make them EVVY Award winners. That's my goal.

That's scary.

First Day Of School / A Day I Can't Forget

Well, today was the first day of class. I had "Writing the Short Subject", and though it is going to be a very labor intensive class with lots and lots of writing, I think that I am going to like it a lot.

In other news, today is September 11th.

I thought about posting a long diatribe or reflective peice of writing. But I'm not. Why? Because I'm tired of thinking about war and terrorism. It seems like "we are at war with eastasia, we have always been at was with eastasia"/ Except replace Eastasia with Terrorism--No, wait, replace Terrorism with freedom.

Think what you will about that.

I love America, and I am so scared for the future of our land. Its enough for me to really not want kids. I don't won't anyone to hate me for the world I left for them to fix.

Tommorow I have three more classes: Islam in the world, Editing for Film and Video, and Preformance for Television. They should all be pretty good. As for other things? Well, I'll just have to do my best and try a little harder. I'm going to be going to the gym, and I'm trying to walk for at least half an hour everyday. I'll keep you updated on how that's going.

Take it easy, and good night.

Workin' on the Chain Gang

So I'm capturing footage for a 8-10 minute orientation video. It's pretty funny, but it's also been a cross-country epic, so to speak. We'vc got all this stuff to log and capture. Probably over 9 hours worth!

Granted, full interviews were conducted with each staff memeber they encountered for a seperate project, which is why the footage is so much longer than the final project.

In short, it's going to be an interesting time, as I stay up late and try to edit all of this crap rogether and keep a cool head the entire time. Wish me luck!

Tommorow is the last day before I head out to Spencer, MA for the Spencer Fair. I'm kinda bummed that I have to go, but I will make the money that I need, and that is all that's important.

Aaarrgh! - And Other Musings From The First Days Back At School

So apparently blogger has integrated with/been bought out by Google.

HOWEVER, since I already have an account, it is NOT integrated, and at least at this juncture, it appears that the only way I will be able to integrate will be to create a new blog. Which I am not about to do after almost 3 years of blogging.

What else is new?

Well, I'm back at school, editing segments for Fast-Forward/Rewind, a show that documents freshman orientation week. I actually should be editing right now. But I'm not. I'm already staying up to late and not getting enough sleep, even though no one is here and I am not even that busy yet. I'm really nervous about this year. If I don't step up this year, I feel like I never will. This could be a banner year, or a failure year.

Pete Chvany said I looked like I've lost 15 pounds. In reality, I've only lost about 5, but I can already tell it will be short lived unless I get a fitness regimine going. I need to either walk or go to the gym three times a week at least, and cut down drastically on my soda consumption.

In other news, I talked for over an hour with one of the security gaurds at Emerson named Susan. She was born in Kenya and moved here around 40. She has a facinating life. Interestingly enough, she found out I was Mormon and we talked about Utah. She lived in Logan, UT for a few years when she first arrived in America, and then when she went back to Kenya she told all of her friends that there was no alchohol in America! (Utah has relatively little in terms of bars and drinking). Anyway, we had a great conversation, and I already feel like I know her a lot better. She told me that the personal assistant to the school's attorney is a Mormon, and that we should meet. I agreed.

Anyway, when I left, I bumped into a guy asking for money. I recognized him as the guy who had asked me for money the first day I had got back to Boston, and I had given him around a dollar in change. I told him "You asked me for money the other day" and he said, "No, that wasn't me" and I proceeded to describe what he was wearing, and he said "Oh yeah, that was me". He seemed taken aback, and I'm not sure why. I can hypothosize that he was suprised that I had seen him.

I had looked at him and seen him.

In the city you learn to look away and ignore the poverty and panhandling around you. But I saw him and rocognized him two days later, in the dark. And I think it shocked him that I knew and treated him as a person. I'll never know his story and I just hope he can get to a better position someday.

It's certainly been an interesting time. I'm getting anxious about the future, but we'll just have to see what happens. I'm going to try and post for a little bit every night.

Now, on to that editing!